Experiencing Grace In Unfailing Love

I am cheerless and dispirited since yesterday when a brother in Christ, a habitual drug abuser under my guardianship was apprehended by the authorities. He was found to possess 15g of heroin with intention to traffic. The offence is punishable by death or life imprisonment. He was apprehended in Penang on Sunday while on the pretext of visiting his parents.

I am lamenting now whether I did enough supervising him. He is a born again; he was saved and baptized 3 years ago. He is 52. He stayed with us, occupying the downstairs room.

Besides him, I also contribute food to an organization sheltering ex drug addicts, prostitutes, the aged, and homeless. The organization is tended by laymen and laywomen. I also make visits thrice weekly to nursery homes for elderly folks dumped by their own children. I shared the Good News with them and prayed with them. I also care for 2 vagrants around the Kelana Jaya neighborhood. Certain days I tapau chup fun and ate with them.

I totally misunderstood God's intention when I thought He used me to partner Him in His work; He was actually using these episodes to teach me.

Honestly, I am humbled by these responsibilities from God, our heavenly Father and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. I learned and discovered a lot about life and myself. I overcame selfishness, arrogance, patience and a lot of other detestable traits of the sinful me. In the process I assimilated what's like to allow God's grace, the same grace that saved me, to work through me.

Each assignment was a Herculean struggle. I tolerated cruel remarks and ridicule about my sincerity to be a part of God's plan to demonstrate His amazing grace at work. Undaunted, I persevered. I blistered my knees kneeling and sought Jesus for help. Without my Saviour, its mission impossible. I celebrated joyously each time I emerged victoriously in my test because I worked without any form of resources.

Initially, I thought it was a cruel joke from God. I was struggling with finances then, after losing almost everything in my book distribution business. Adrian and Melissa were still school going. Fortunately, God used my sister to help us.

Honestly, right up to this very second, my daily expenditure are sustained by God's kind provision and providence. Every day is a miracle because in my predicament, God provided everything to support His work, lest I boasted and claimed recognition for His work.

As I conclude, I could feel the cheery spirit slowly making its way back into its humble abode.